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Monday Reflection: Introspection: Dad

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It’s been exactly three months since the new staff first inhabited the quarters. I find the meals no longer want for flavor and fixtures in the halls and guest rooms no longer pale with dust. The whole estate now bustles with renewed vitality, bristling at all hours with the suggestion of anonymous youth. Yet while observant and polite and superior in every aspect, attending to all affairs both expected and spontaneous with less disruption, in less anticipation, and for lesser salaries, no one here remembers who you were. The gardener now only scowls peevishly when I send a tempest of gravel onto the uniformly manicured lawn, pastel and pristinely preened. I’m still unused to my pointed sighs sinking weightlessly under the undisturbed clutter of efficiency. How often I forget myself and lingering, wait on the maid’s piteously cocked glances to connect with my listless moistened eyelids that once elicited conditioned consolation. Although you never had in seven years of visitation and eventual residence the opportunity to memorize their names, I often found myself nodding automatically at Parkis the butler’s hand on my shoulder accompanying unsolicited assurances such as “We miss her dearly, sir.” I’d catch myself following the melodically intoned invocations of the maid Ms. Miles, whose face you once said aroused in you a deep discomfort, “No doubt she rests upon the right hand…” They only knew you left on unsuspicious holiday—not your first without me—to perish unexpectedly, your lithe limbs already spent and limp while being carried off the Cessna and once more tightly writhing within the second night of arrival, whipping little bits of essential sweat with every twist upon a daybed in the final minutes.

I don’t pretend that I remember who you were. Who I knew had left before your body departed the continent or your spirit relieved itself of its material. My beloved lies buried in the undisclosed circumstances of your last excursion, a secret only known to me since their infancy, including your companion, the trip’s initial impetus and requestor, who was to be my replacement. Attending beds with you in secret addresses, he intended to be so before we even wed and had convinced you to continue with the natural matrimony as to contribute comfort to the conditions. A pianist! When only news awoke us a day before your proposed homecoming, I felt instantaneous but fleeting relief. My desire for details became my new obsession, replacing and outweighing my jealous burden. At that time, I wanted to hear you scream as you tried, in a perverted reenactment of your stray straining, to resist the inevitable outcome of your escapade and force open your eyes in accusation and regret as he averted your thinning form, held so close in various escapist charades. I wanted to see your unenviable bones collapsing and scraping the inside of your skin in independent spasms, new contortions unattempted in previous recreation. Long after the waltz written employing anagrams of your name had waned in popularity and fallen out of common repertoires, I revisited my favorite phrases of yours, fine tuning them to divine which ones were your stock, which you had heard first on his lips and which were lies composed before we’d even met.

Until the very day their resignations were enforced, they misunderstood the source of my unebbing grief, assessing the root of my disbelief to be in the triumph of fatal determination and not your ill-conceived decision. They stressed that I must press on, that my indignation was misdirected expenditure, mistaking its aim for the otherworldly instead of the incomprehensible fact that a repugnant composer of stagnant, artificial overtures could overtake my passion for you. I never corrected them. I never so much as implied what I knew about the increasingly coincidental vacancies of our chamber and the music shop or the fat, flaccid fingers leading your hand to the ends of the earth as I had so often promised. They praised your singing and voracity. “Insatiable,” they’d say without a trace of irony or mockery. Your favorite meals were eventually brought to me despite foresight of a lost appetite. The broken dishes were swept away with patience and set jingling in gentle encouragement. Their sympathetic din grew louder and more harmonious against my discordant truth, asserting that your suffering was short until I’d abruptly quit the hall. The tantrums that such remarks engendered were attributed to a maladjusted mind—and correctly so—and they’d let me go, unaware the malady stemmed from all my discarded devotion, requited only for convenience. The unfairness that all but me may recall you flawlessly, ideal, supreme.

For months, I reluctantly approached father, imploring in superficial implications that the mourning chorus must go. “The tapestries spit dust when one walks by. Please say something…The flowers in the foyer have been two days wilting. Please do something,” but nothing was said and nothing done, owing to years of dedicated service and reciprocal respect. I received repeated prayers with feigned restraint until I broke under your tarnished memory. I accepted as penance the duty of silence. I suspended my frustrations. The vivid approximations of your meetings and torrid fits, the first and subsequent, and the misplaced carnal snarls that ensnared your once eloquent wit became flat fact to me, not tortuous vision. One day last summer, inside the study, father volunteered the mystifying sentiment, “As all relationships begin auspiciously, they never quite seem to reach that level of indefinite splendor we prepare for, isn’t that right…”

Today, I sifted through the newly organized cabinets, searching for a napkin you clumsily marked with lipstick on your last night here—from nervousness or blissful distraction I’m still unsure—that remained a year unwashed out of reverence—for me or for the ideal you, I’m still uncertain. It now rests, indistinguishable in the sweet smelling load of light linen which I rejected in entirety into an insolent pile on the floor. I passed the piano which now appears as if frequently played and turn up the freshly polished lid. I faintly ran the length of the keyboard and wondered which note begins your sonata. I tried reciting Ms. Miles’ prayers with the intention of including him had I been able to recall his name or the prayer itself. I’m now prepared for platitudes and presumptions, for adoptions of martyrdom, to abandon one unfounded insistence for another, but comical imitations replace the sympathetic murmurs audible outside the servants’ quarters. I find narrow empty eyes focused only on completing daily routines and vacating the corridors without encountering me. I watch two motes of dead cell dust collide and drift onto the floor, loitering until tomorrow to be dutifully disposed for offences that comprise their basic nature.

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The REAL Rip Taylor #6: Hobbies (no. 1 Birds)

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There's been much confusion and controversy surrounding the selection of Rip Taylor for a fetured role in 2010's arthouse film The Black Swan, but the choice was fairly obvious, given Rip's longstanding fascination with birds. [ed. note: For those of you who may haven't seen the movie, Rip plays Johann von Meisser, inventor of a pill that turns people into sunbeams. On a trial run, he is intercepted by a bird in the sky and the two tumble back to earth. The only way for the doctor, an environmentalist by trade, to keep the bird alive is by remaining attached and not extracing the intermingled DNA. As you can imagine, comedy ensues for the next hour or so. (Sorry to get so involved, there, but the story was absolutely riveting for me.)]

As you can see here, Rip's passion for winged wildlife has always aroused disbelief. Many hold hard and fast to the misconception that Rip is merely a first rate entertainer and world-renowned lover. The facts are quite to the contrary, though. Rip's first passion was always birds. This stems from an incident during time spent as a young child in Yugoslavia. Rip tended to his grandmothers bifocaled finches (Fringilla presbyopas), feeding them regularly several times a day. This is where he actually began developing his patented confetti-flinging technique. Rip would often open his show in the early days with a recreation of his feeding routine, while delivering an opening monologue from his first screenplay. He originally used birdseed, but this proved messy and occasionally fatal. he then switched to confetti, and began to make references to "spreading his seed."

Rip's narrowly known skills in communication were investigated by several scientific journals of the 1920's. Few reports survive, because few scientists did. Eventually though, the entertainment industry commanded most of Rip's attention, much to the dismay of several scientific institutions continuing attempts to harness what seemed like whimsical displays of prowess in communication. Rip's response was simply, "Hey, a gull's gotta eat!"

One of Rip's most unique stunts, though by far not his most impressive, is the first he teaches every tropical variety that he acquires: fetching his toupee's. During his more hedonistic and substance-fueled days, he often would turn larger species into viscious killers. To train them, he would go into the streets and toss his toupee at a completely unsuspecting pedestrian, yelling, "Catch!" which doubled as his attack command (see left, Rip, with his third wife, in New York in the mid 70's demonstrating the terrifying powers he possesses.). He later honed this skill so that his birds would specifically attack the crotch.

After attaining the stardom that came naturally, Rip was eventually to refocus his efforts to his first love and even combine his two careers, noting "Hey, I don't wanna pigeonholed... or maybe I do [bats eyebrows]." In the late 80's, Rip established a factory, employing a large percentage of the bird population in creating confetti from large mined blocks of plastic (below, a new employ sets about his task).

Rip has received several prestigious awards , and been dubbed in national press as "the Godfeather" and the self-appointed "Birdman of Alka-Seltzer". As if publishing several pseudonymous books weren't enough, Rip also ghostwrote several hit pop tunes in the past decade, based on conversations he had with his grandmother's finches. This is of course, only a glimpse into the frightening and awe-inspiring world of Rip's unknown talents. When asked about his lifelong interest, Rip quipped, "Well, you know, I've always been an Odd Bird!! Bwhaa meh mwah ha ha!"